Perhaps someone could just use another boost of inspiration? That word seems to mean less the more I use it.

Tragic.

an extended, catch-up on all, explain all, lay it all out there kinda post is in the near future…

can you imagine?

I seemed to have stalled in my dieting and life-reshaping efforts.

This man did not.

Hmph…

It’s that time of year. Catching up. Finishing up. All things associated with end-of-the-school-year tasks.

And here I am finding myself more and more disappointed with my lack-luster dieting performance.

I went so far as to ask my mother what she thought about me looking into the lap-band or any other weight loss surgery. And I feel like that alone betrayed what I set out to prove to myself and my friends and my family and my few readers. I know that I can do this. I have for roughly 2 months.

Sadly, I relented a bit on my regimine and strict decision making skills – and that is something I need to refocus on between now and the end of school. I was lucky – in that the few mistakes I have made haven’t resulted in the finding all of the 10 pounds I lost thus far. However, I have had the misfortune of locating one of those pounds.

All the same – my quest MUST and WILL continue. (Is this feeling a little ‘Lord of the Rings’ to anyone else?”

Pish. I know I am repeating myself – but if its to reassure myself – then you’ll have to deal.

I know I can do this.

I will do this.

I am back on the track and thuroughly look forward to a summer of success and planning and executing. Given my marginal success over the past few weeks – I think a summer of activity and execution will result in some fulfilling success.

Don’t you think?

I hope my absence hasn’t discourage anyone or any thoughts. I hope you’ll all still believe that I can do this and keep an eye out for my updates.

I also hope you’re all as busy as I am….being the best you.

Gained a pound. A crappy few days lately. Waitin’ in the weekend and for my ambition to roll back into town.

Anyone seen it?

So. Here comes a rant that I’ll try to keep to a minimum. And if I’ve touched on it before – be patient or look elsewhere – ‘cuz it’s still something that I’m having a hard time processing.

Everyone in my weight loss group wants to be thinner and healthier – and we all want that for each other, too. But in my head – I see us all going down the same, often difficult but ultimately rewarding beyond comprehension, path. Where we change our habits, our lifestyles, our portion intake and our exercise routines. For some of us – it means actually having a routine – but that’s another post, another day.

But now, I have a friend who is a few doctor’s appointments into preparing for the Lap Band surgery and I have to selfishly admit that I’m not completely supportive or proud or even happy about it. And I feel awful about that.

Here’s what gets me: my friend is only 23 and she has been able to lose weight in the past. There is no part of me that thinks her case is a hopeless one – where only medical intervention would save her life. In high school – she successfully lost 70 pounds with Weight Watchers. In my opinion (and I know – really – how much does that count?) she doesn’t need the surgery because she isn’t able to lose weight – she wants the surgery as opposed to going through the hard work. And I keep thinking she’ll come across a doctor who tells her the same thing; a doctor who will see her and evaluate her and realize she could lose the weight on her own.

But I know – beyond what I think – it’s really just something I need to deal with. My issue, not hers. Right? I know how hard it is going to be to see her melt away right before all of our eyes. Six months after her surgery – she’ll be countless pounds lighter and visually a new person. And I’ll be more than 6 months into my journey – as I’ve started already – 2 months ago – and won’t be but a fraction of the success she will be.

Wasn’t ridiculously productive today – except getting in the regular workout. Wanted it to come in the form of another extended bike ride – but the weather didn’t pan out.

I keep getting more and more excited for summer. Should be a great time. Not much news on anything else. Another weigh in is a few days away. School is still rolling to its end. Not so abrupt end – but I’m sure it will still sneak up on us!

Hope you’re all well!

Be the best YOU!

=)

…is weather like THIS! Gorgeous here in Northern Minnesota! I don’t know what the temp is – but the sky couldn’t be clearer and the sun couldn’t be brighter. Took off on a bike road with a friend. Tooled around the town and got some errands done for the friend – he needed to pick up some groceries and run to the bank.

I ride the stationary bike every day – so I thought I’d be somewhat prepped for the first lengthy bike ride of the season. I was wrong. Turns out the ups and downs of a natural street had my number. But it/I still felt better than what I would have – say – one year ago trying to get back in the swing of things. I really look forward to the summer and the freedom. Of all the places I have spent summers – this is by far my favorite place to spend them. The lake and the open days – even with work or classes or any other commitment – is still awesome.

Alright. I’m rambling a bit. Going to jump in the shower and meet a friend and her parents for lunch. Great day. Hope yours is, too! =)

Get it? Like Friday – Fryday. Whatever. I tried. =) But it’s true. I don’t! I feel good about that change. They don’t really appeal to me anymore right now. I wonder if that will always be or if I just really know – more than usual – that they aren’t what my body needs. Its nice to see changes like that.

Anyways. Slim-Fast for breakfast. A burrito at home for lunch – with a handful of tortilla chips. Had a few bananas throughout the day. One of my favorite fruits/foods so that’s always a highlight of my day’s menu! Just getting done having a turkey wrap and a handful of chips. I think I tried to put too many flavors together for the wrap. Tomato-basil wrap and dijon mustard and cajun turkey. I LOVE full-flavored things – but perhaps next time, I’ll allow one flavor to rule the wrap – instead of shoving them together. Mental note!

Going to go work out in about 15 minutes. Gym closes early tonight. Planning a bike ride tomorrow if the weather holds up – so fingers crossed on that!

Hope you’re all doing well! Have a good weekend and make good choices! =)

Be the best you!

Fairly uneventful day. Slim-Fast for breakfast and a banana. Deli sandwich w/ veggies for lunch. Dinner was a turkey sandwich and some left over soup. I noticed the same amount of soup that used to last me maybe a meal or two – actually lasted me many days. I had just a little bit each day or meal – instead of embarrassingly excessive amounts of soup each time. So – small step but woot for that! I’ll take little victories where I can get them!

I just got done working out – and while I normally don’t eat this late – I know you’re supposed to have something after a workout to help your body/muscles rebound from the workout. So – I had a small bowl of Life cereal.

Now we’re off to listen to some live music and wind down – take a break from the day to day must do’s!

I get a few RAISINS here and there – nothing as grand and uplifting as before. Ah – who am I kidding – every thing – small or big – is uplifting. Every so often I’ll get a ”you look good” or a ”i can see the difference” – stuff like that.  So – that is always nice. Keeps the wheels turnin’!

Gotsta shower! No one likes a stanky girl!

Take care. Keep working hard.

And per always – be the best YOU!